Are you restless like me?

The end.

2007-06-30T14:59:00.000-07:00

I don't think I'm going to write in this anymore. But I will update this instead, so go there. It's more fun.

And you still won't quit...

2007-06-14T22:36:00.000-07:00

It's over!!! WOOOO!

SUMMER!

School's out forever.

2007-06-14T00:06:00.000-07:00

Blogger broke my blog. Oh well.

I AM NO LONGER IN HIGH SCHOOL. GREATEST THING EVER.

Tasha and Carolyn and I had BK on the ridge and took artsy pictures of the sunset and rented Dazed and Confused and Slackers to commemorate this occasion. Wooo!

That's how you get pink eye.

2007-06-11T00:16:00.000-07:00

Manda says that my blog is all messed up, but it looks fine in Firefox so I don't know what's wrong.

3 grad parties down. I wonder how many there'll be.

I thought I was still awake enough to write in this, but I was wrong. 'Night.

12 more times.

2007-05-22T22:28:00.001-07:00

Camarie's birthday party is on Friday and I guess I'm supposed to wear a dress and heels. I have one not-so-great dress and have never worn heels in my life. So I think I might go to the thrift store and find the tackiest thing there that fits me. Not sure yet.

ALMOST DONE!!!

2007-05-22T17:05:00.000-07:00

ONCE THIS WEEK IS OVER ONLY GOOD THINGS ARE LEFT. (School-wise, at least.)

This morning feels like yesterday.

2007-05-19T21:51:00.000-07:00

So I didn't go to prom. But that didn't stop me from going to an after party. I only really knew one person there because a bunch of people ended up not showing, but that didn't matter after awhile. Those kids were hilarious. Everyone there got along fine even though there had been speculation about clashes. The kids who had gone to prom didn't get there until like 3 and we were up until about 6:30, it felt like a lot longer then three and a half hours though. Then I like napped for an hour and took some kid home and slept in my own bed. I've sort of been laying around all day since. Good night.

I made this in class today.

2007-05-14T22:13:00.000-07:00

The ASB convention was horrible. I walked past a dead cat on my way to Trader Joe's. I sold 3 slices of Little Caesar's pizza for $1 each. The competition to give a speech at graduation is on Wednesday, I wrote my speech in physics today. Lots of things are going on and it's all making me tired.

I painted Eric's skateboard for him.

2007-05-13T21:21:00.000-07:00

He said I could do whatever I wanted with it and flowers were really tempting, but I can't draw flowers. I AM WILLING TO PAINT STUFF ON THINGS FOR YOU. It will either be free or pretty cheap, depending on what it is and how much I like you.

SOS. No really, I swear.

2007-05-06T22:54:00.000-07:00

It's still quite warm in my room. And tomorrow is supposed to be warmer. I gave up on waiting to wax my legs because I definitely don't want to wear jeans tomorrow. This weekend felt really long, which was nice. I didn't have any homework either. This whole week felt pretty long, actually. I did a lot. I ended up seeing Against Me! with Tasha and Wednesday. It was so great. I had to suffer through Cursive, though, but we had fun mocking them. And we met a cute boy from Pleasant Hill. He was hilarious. But I'm hell of lame and didn't even think of trying to get his phone number. I need to stop being so timid. On Friday I made my way up the giant hill that is the Berkeley campus to see Bright Eyes. Again, SO GREAT. And my brother's girlfriend's sister and her friend are pretty cool this time around, we bonded over AM! and BE trivia. Saturday was Cinco de Mayo. I hung out with Carolyn, Camarie, and Tom. I learned a valuable lesson. Today I slept in quite late and then braved the heat to go get ice cream with Carolyn, Tom, and their friend Jake. We ended up at East Avenue Park just sitting in the grass. Carolyn wants me to be Jake's "date" to CVHS' prom. I can't decide if I should or not. Jake's not that bad, I mean I'm not interested in him or anything like that but I think I could stand him for a night. But I barely know anyone at CVHS and most of the people there I probably don't want to know. I'd be uncomfortable enough at my own prom in a dress and make up and shit, I don't think being surrounded by rude strangers would make me feel any better. I know Carolyn will be there, but as much as she says she won't, she'll probably spend most of her time with Tom. It's prom after all, and you should spend it with someone you care about. I just don't know.

Oh, I added messaging to my phone plan. Now I can send and receive text/video/picture messages without paying a million dollars each time. Send me something!

I'm still awake because I'm stupid.

2007-05-02T02:20:00.001-07:00

How cute is that?!

This is post #666.

2007-05-02T00:23:00.000-07:00

I'm sort of glad that it's cold this week. I can't wear shorts for a little while. I bought wax for my legs but for best results the hair is supposed to be 1/4" long (not so attractive, I know). That means no shaving for a while, which means no shorts. However, I am not glad that it is supposed to rain tomorrow because my car only has one windshield wiper and is just generally not as fun and easy to drive in the rain. Plus, the water makes the breaks squeak and it's embarrassing. Speaking of my car, my dad and I finally put in the cassette deck so I can listen to static-free music. We didn't completely finish it, we still need to adjust the faceplate and everything, but it works and doesn't wiggle too much. Also, we didn't hook up the rear speakers because a)we didn't have the correct wires, and b)the rear speakers are sorta blown out so I might get new ones first. Overall, it sounds pretty awesome regardless. Except for the tape adapter for my Shuffle, that sounds pretty tinny and the tape part clicks, so I'm just going to get the little minjack-to-minijack cord for it. Hopefully that'll sound better because the whole reason I bought the new deck was so that I could connect my shuffle and have it sound good. For now I will satisfy myself with actually listening to all the tapes I've bought used and/or inherited.

I'm 99.99999% sure that I am not going to prom. I bought a dress already, but it was only $4 at Thrift Town and I'm not so happy with it anyway. I changed my mind because I realized I would be pretty much the only one out of the people I socialize with that won't have a date. I was always a little uneasy because of the dateless thing along with the fact that I don't really dance, especially not to the type of music that will be played. And the whole thing is so damn expensive! It would be like paying $75 to hang around in an outfit I'm not really comfortable in, listening to crappy music, with a few friends but mostly people that I try to forget. If I had a date, whether it were just as friends or not, I might be more inclined because then I'd at least have one person who's definitely going to be with me the whole night. As it is, though, I have a feeling I'd end up either sitting alone or with people I don't like very much and complaining most of the time. I'd rather partake in some other form of festivities that don't cost as much.

I can't sleep. I probably should because we start at 10:10 tomorrow rather than 12 like today, but I had two cups of iced coffee (homemade, thankyouverymuch). Also, I have like this window of tiredness between 11-12 that if I stay awake through it I get some sort of second wind and can stay up until about 3. And if I combine that with the consumption of caffeine I get rather hyper and long-winded, as you may be able to tell by this unusually drawn out post. Carolyn can vouch for this whole phenomenon, it happened once at her house. Her grandma said that I probably talked more that night than all the other times I've hung out over there combined. I doubt that, though, but I'm sure I talked quite a bit. I also threw a paper airplane at Carolyn a lot. Phil made it for me out of a Legos catalog and I used it to wake Carolyn up, she kept dosing off. That night we had watched Monty Python and the Holy Grail and I did not enjoy it very much. My mom assured me that it is better while drunk. I liked the Life of Brian one, and I was sober when I watched it, so...I don't really know what that says about the whole thing though.

I don't really like boys at the moment. Or, I don't really like their effect on the way girls spend their time. One of my two best friends is no longer single and the other one is probably pretty close to not being single, or at least not really single. Anyway, by the end of next week, hell, maybe by the end of this week they'll both have boys to attend to. And I won't. Instead, I'll have two best friends who are now busier than they were a few weeks ago and no one to fill in the gaps. I know they aren't going to ditch me or anything, they aren't those kinds of girls, but they will have less time to spend just the three of us. Either one or more of the boys will come along with us or one or more of the girls will be off with their boy. I'm just feeling pretty cynical about the whole situation even though it will probably work out better than I imagine.

One highlight in the immediate future is that I'll be going to see Bright Eyes in Berkeley on Friday. I'm very excited even though this is my second time seeing them because now I know and love a much larger portion of the Bright Eyes catalog. I can't wait to sing along to "Four Winds". And I really hope they play some older stuff like "Haligh, Haligh, A Lie, Haligh" and "Bowl of Oranges". I can't decide if I should bring my camera. I did last time and got a few acceptable shots, but this show is outside and I just don't want the burden of a camera. I'm going with pretty much the same group as last time, my brother, his girlfriend, plus her sister and her sister's friend. There were some other kids I didn't know that came to the last one, but they didn't really count as they didn't stay with us the whole time.

Gosh, I wrote a novel. I wrote for about 36 minutes. I'm starting to feel another wave of sleepiness coming on and I'm gonna try to catch this one. 'Night.

"Did you say chill?"

2007-04-29T00:57:00.000-07:00

There's something crawling around in my attic. Right above my room. It sounds like it might be going to sleep because it isn't moving as much now. I'm trying to decide if I should try to get it to go away by pounding on the ceiling or just letting it stay. If it doesn't quiet down soon I'll try to scare it. It sounds big.

I have 3 mosquito bites.

2007-04-28T20:34:00.000-07:00

It's very warm out. Chocolate gelato from Trader Joe's is yummy. Going to school yesterday was not fun at all. But there's less than 7 weeks left, I think I can make it.

There's this blue jay that's been spending its days outside my house following my cat around and screeching the whole time. We figure he's warning the birds that build nests in our trees. My sister has given my cat permission to kill it and Houdini is definitely trying. That bird is annoying.

I have a headache.

2007-04-26T21:58:00.000-07:00

Homework is really really lame. My friend scanned in a copy of the worksheets we had to do for physics because I wasn't there to get it, but I think she might have only scanned every other page. Then it took me half an hour to print them because my printer hates me. Plus, I didn't understand some of the bookwork because we skipped chapters and I had no idea what they were asking me to do. I didn't even go to school today even though the teachers were back because I didn't know we had to go in at 8 until 7:30 this morning. It was nice to forget about school for three weeks. And finally the weather gets pretty again and we have to go back.

"Didn't mean to? You put your sword through his head!"

2007-04-21T03:24:00.000-07:00

I want breakfast. My FM transmitter died and I've been forced to listen to the soulless drivel that is today's radio. It really is sad, Live 105 plays the same 10-15 songs all day. And I only like about 3 of them.

I guess I should sleep.

"I'm gonna mail you ice cream."

2007-04-17T13:57:00.000-07:00

It's really windy today. Our trees are attacking the house.

I have to take my sister to work and do my laundry and start my physics homework. I wonder when the strike will end. I haven't been to school in two weeks. I think next week is STAR testing. Yay! Who wants to go out for breakfast?

I took only the questions I wanted to answer from a silly survey.

2007-04-14T18:20:00.000-07:00

-Do you believe in the zodiac? No. Pluto isn't a planet anymore, thus negating all of astrology.
-Who was the last person to IM you? Tasha, to yell at me to send pictures that I had already sent.
-Who did you last talk to on the phone? Tasha's dad, or Carolyn's answering machine.
-Where are your parents? In the living room.
-Where did you get the shirt you're wearing? From outside in: DCFC sweater from their show, black t-shirt from a clothing swap at a craft fair, and yellow t-shirt from Threadless from my brother.
-What was the last thing you drank? Pineapple juice.
-What is your favorite website? My personalized Google homepage.
-What do you currently hear? The end of "A Certain Romance" by Arctic Monkeys.

Here:

They're better at Idiot's Poker than I am.

Ugh, sophomore boys.

2007-04-12T21:48:00.000-07:00

I'm obsessed with the #11 smoothie at Blenzer's in Castro Valley.

I drove lots today, and figured out how to get to the movie theater at Hacienda Crossing without taking the freeway.

I'm tired.

Revotion! Revotluion!

2007-04-11T00:56:00.000-07:00

That's all.

Madness? THIS IS SPARTA!

2007-04-10T00:55:00.001-07:00

I just saw 300. It was very very good.

Lots of abs.

I'm trying to camp.

2007-04-09T13:29:00.000-07:00

EVERYONE SUCKS BECAUSE THEY MAKE ME DO ALL THE PLANNING AND THEY AREN'T AROUND TO CONFIRM ANYTHING!!!

Again.

2007-04-08T20:52:00.000-07:00

My cat eats chocolate. My brother gave me the mp3s for the new Bright Eyes cd. It's good. One song is just amazing though, Four Winds. Here's the video for it.

I'm all better!

2007-04-08T19:16:00.000-07:00

Okay, so I know it's Easter, but I'm finally not sick and I'm really bored and I want to go out and do something. I got $7 out of the egg hunt (my family puts money in them). My elbows and socks are all dirty from my cousin's trampoline. I really want a hammock.

Happy Easter!

2007-04-08T11:57:00.000-07:00

And hope never to mean it.

2007-04-01T21:55:00.000-07:00

My dad has to take my car to work tomorrow. This makes me sad. He's gonna mess with everything.

I wish the teachers would just strike already. Gosh.

"I don't want to, it might explode."

2007-03-30T20:27:00.000-07:00

I challenge cell phone manufacturers to design a way for your cell phone to tell you how much gas is in your car's tank. Now that would be handy.

I went out running errands with Manda today. It was actually sort of fun, aside from her bugging me to let her smoke in my car most of the way.

Oh yeah, I was sick yesterday. But I slept for like 20 hours and now I feel pretty much better. Nothing a little advil can't help.

My car's horn makes me giggle.

Everyday has a beginning and ending.

2007-03-27T18:56:00.000-07:00

Today hasn't been all that great so far. I won't go into the details that probably seem trivial to everyone else, but I'll say that this is one of the worst days in awhile. Then again, I've had mostly awesome days lately.

You should listen to this song. It's .m4a, sorry.

I'm all furry.

2007-03-26T21:40:00.000-07:00

I bought a big box of wildflower seeds today. I think I might just sprinkle them all around the edge of my yard and see what sprouts.

Every time I get a new issue of WIRED, my career plan is reaffirmed. I love that magazine so much.

San Leandro is full of rude boys.

2007-03-25T22:20:00.000-07:00

Everyone is always online on Sunday nights.

I'm tired.

I locked my keys in the car today, outside the hardware store when I was about to go in and make copies of it in case I did something like that. I suck.

My car made it up to Tasha's! And to the marina and back.

I ate a bite of lettuce today. It's okay though, there was spinach too.

Santa Cruz has more cute boys than Hayward.

2007-03-24T19:05:00.000-07:00

Highway 1 is my favorite thing about California, aside from my loved ones.

Our trip to Santa Cruz was amazing. Next time will be even better because now we know how to get to the beach at night.

So I already killed the battery in my car. Yesterday I was rushing around going to Walgreen's (twice) before we left and I must have bumped the switch for my lights and left my parking lights on all day and night. We need to find our jumper cables.

May Elvis turn in his grave, and Les Paul kiss my dirty, calloused fingers.

2007-03-23T10:10:00.000-07:00

I have hiccups. I HATE hiccups.

THE WHEELZ.

2007-03-22T20:41:00.000-07:00

Check that shit out. I am mobile. You are all jealous of my hella sick ride. Maybe I'll give you a ride sometime, maybe, if you're lucky.

Seriously though, I love it and everything that makes it ridiculous.

It looks like a ladybug.

2007-03-19T21:59:00.000-07:00

Days like this reassure me that getting out of here is for the best.

(School was okay, even lunch despite the expired mayo.)

I suck.

2007-03-17T21:25:00.000-07:00

I always think of the right thing to say hours later.

My cat eats Chow Mein.

2007-03-17T19:59:00.000-07:00

I can't believe it took me 18 years to go to a St. Patrick's Day Parade in San Francisco. It was so fun. Plus, there were plenty of attractive guys. Including these Irish boys who were sitting next to us and drinking Corona and Steel Reserve.

I spent too much money and didn't bring enough Bailey's. But it was a success.

Thrift Town had a bunch of good cds and a cute new employee. I got two Eve 6 cds, an old Offspring one, and Dishwalla along with a purple bandanna, another heart mug, and a polka dot fabric covered binder.

"Tributes"

2007-03-14T22:29:00.000-07:00

Assignments for photo:

The future

2007-03-14T22:06:00.000-07:00

I feel like everything is going to happen in a few days. Not that a bunch of things are literally going to happen, but it feels like things I'm not comfortable with will change in a few days. Like I'll be able to go to sleep earlier in a few days, or I won't have to shower in the dark at 6am in a few days, or I won't have this unrelenting cough, I'll start making things again, I'll clean my room, I'll eat healthier. And "a few days" doesn't mean three or four, it's just a cushion between right now (whenever that is) and the time that things are going to change. I don't really like this feeling, it's a mix between procrastinating and anticipation.

Anyway:
-St. Patrick's Day this Saturday
-Santa Cruz next Saturday
-Spring Break in April
-Bright Eyes in May
-Graduation in June
-Fourth of July in, July, of course, and probably Warped Tour
-(I don't know what's in August)
-SEATTLE IN SEPTEMBER!

We're so controversial.

2007-03-13T17:24:00.000-07:00

This almost make me want to wear lipstick.

This stuff is made of corn. And the tube itself is biodegradable and has real flower seeds in it so you can plant it when you're done with it. AND $2 from each tube is donated to St. Jude's Hospital.

If I ever do wear make up it'll be stuff like this, if I could afford it.

"Lately mornings feel like I'm not winning."

2007-03-10T19:22:00.000-08:00

Beach trip tomorrow. First real beach trip of the year. First beach trip without a parent. I even bought flip-flops, this must be big.

My keyboard is dusty.

Time for dinner.

Yay!!!!

2007-03-10T11:13:00.000-08:00

My brother got me a ticket to the Bright Eyes show in Berkeley in May!!

"Hearts aren't made of glass...

2007-03-07T20:22:00.000-08:00

They're made of muscle, blood, and something else."

I hate being sick. I hate when little boys get frustrated and think they're men and think they can refuse to do their job. I hate that there are still 5 weeks until Spring Break. I hate not having a car. I hate waking up early.

But it's okay. I feel better today than I did yesterday. I ran in at Trader Joe's for my mommy and then cooked dinner. And then ate dinner. I've been putting off my physics homework for an hour now. I think I might buy a car if I can find either truck w/ 3 seats, a Jeep Wrangler with a soft top, or a convertible for $1200 or less before the end of May.

Hey, it's March! Woo!

I hate being sick when it's warm out.

2007-03-06T19:42:00.000-08:00

I'm still alive. Just sick. I keep feeling like I have to sneeze and then not sneezing. And then I'll sneeze with no warning and no time to prepare. I hate that.

I think my lungs are trying to escape every time I cough.

Yay! Someone offered to buy the tickets to the Against Me! show in Pomona that we bought and then decided not to go to. This way we only lost $7 each instead of $21. Santa Cruz is a much better destination anyway.

I need some of that throat spray that numbs your throat.

Now I should do my homework so I can watch that episode of The Black Donnellys that I missed last night.

Attention:

2007-02-27T20:32:00.000-08:00

MY ROOM IS FREEZING.

That is all.

I NEED TO GO CAMPING.

2007-02-25T21:04:00.000-08:00

I want to go camping in Half Moon Bay and ride my bike around and sing really loudly and then drink camp-stove coffee while wrapped in a blanket, sitting on the sand.

Who's with me?

(My mom, sister, and I went out to HMB to go to this little junk/antique shop and swung by the campground afterward to see which sites are the best. The waves were huge.)

"We saw the western coast..."

2007-02-25T12:58:00.000-08:00

I AM THE CAUSE TO ALL YOUR PROBLEMS.

No bowling last night, but we ate and then watched The Departed. It's now one of my favorite movies. Lots of people get shot in the head though. Is it bad that we laughed at a few of them?

I like this Brand New cd that Tasha lent me. It isn't their new one. It's Deja Entendu. I keep thinking it says Deja Nintendo.

My sister is reading over my shoulder. Now she's lighting matches, "I have fire," she said.

I'm boring now. My sister is complaining because she thinks I meant she was boring. She's trying to stick a match in my ear.

A lot of my blog titles are lyrics.

2007-02-24T17:45:00.000-08:00

One day I will write a whole book of Haikus.

My WIRED subscription came. I love that magazine. I want to work for a magazine like that or ReadyMade or MAKE: one day. Even a travel magazine would be cool, or maybe a food one. I'd love to be the art director or creative director for wherever I end up.

The proposed name for mine and Stephanie's zine is now going to be the name of the feminist club's "literary magazine." I'm not sure how I should feel about this. Eh. "She Can Read" was going to be the name of our zine because we both like Interpol, and we're girls, and we read. It applies to the feminist club, too. Right now I'm listening to Pretty Girls Make Graves, though, and I think there's a line from one of their songs that would fit the club better, "And She Said, And She Said..." PGMG seems a bit more feminist-friendly than Interpol, too.

I have updated my favorite venue, now it is a tie between Bottom of the Hill and Balazo 18 Gallery.

I'm pretty sure I'm going to Rock 'n' Bowl tonight. It's classic rock night.

NO ONE EVER ANSWERS CAROLYN'S PHONE. LAAAAME.

Back to plucking my eyebrows because they're trying to take over my face. Yuck.

"Where we're coming from will be the death of us."

2007-02-20T19:02:00.000-08:00

There's this group in my photo class that pretty much only talks about parties and partying. Instead of listening to them, I got a credential and hung out with Holbrook's AOPs in the cafeteria and ate a cupcake and took silly pictures of people and the tables.

I guess I should do my homework now so that I can get some other shit done before I go to sleep so that I can wake up at a reasonable time tomorrow.

I like run-on sentences.

None of my teachers have noticed that my sweatshirt says "Shit" on it, or they haven't said anything about it.

And I don't think it's mean, it just represents a chilly disconnect from reality.

2007-02-13T22:23:00.000-08:00

Fuck Valentine's Day, I just like hearts.

Today I went to Target and got a white belt, music note t-shirt, and a pink fake-Nalgene bottle. Now, along with my Shuffle filled with little-known bands from the other side of the country, ironic children's toy wallet, and thrift store shoes I can officially be a hipster, right?

I've been dancing all day.

"We stay up all night long and carry through 'til dawn."

2007-02-11T19:35:00.000-08:00

The three day weekend is one of the best inventions ever.

I'd like to publicly thank Tasha for getting me into Against Me!, Fake Problems, Latterman, Defiance Ohio, and This Bike is a Pipe Bomb. I can't stop listening to them. And dancing.

The weather was beautiful today. If it's like this tomorrow I want to have a picnic at Garin Park.

Today I took a walk and shot a whole roll of film. I took pictures of pretty things.

iTunes sucks at shuffling things.

Beerfest was hilarious. Hollywoodland was pretty good. Little Miss Sunshine was amazing and cute.

Even though my plans for today fell through, I'm still really happy. I had a good time just wandering. Things are awesome. I am awesome. My friends and family are awesome. This year is awesome. Impromptu sing-alongs are awesome.

It wasn't a good time unless there are new dents in the table the next morning.

I need better tweezers.

2007-02-06T22:28:00.000-08:00

I'm still alive.

I've been watching too much tv lately.

Weather is weird.

I'm working on a new scheme.

"Oh it was new, it was cute, at first."

2007-01-31T20:10:00.000-08:00

I actually did all my homework last night. And I'm about to finish up tonight's. I rule. It does make the school day better when I don't have to worry about fitting in time to finish homework.

I've had that Fake Problems cd that Tasha let me rip on repeat on iTunes for days now. I don't think I am physically capable of playing anything else right now. Except for maybe Latterman or Against Me!

My mommy and I made strawberry-banana smoothies. They were very very yummy.

My cat wants to lick my hands after I put lotion on. Freak.

Things are awesome. I write less when things are going well, but it should be the other way around.

I want to make Valentine cards. Maybe I will after I finish my homework.

"Kick myself in gear, I'm gettin' out of here and I've got to leave you behind. Take some initiative, it's the first stage of development, and you should use it all the time. I'm not your father and I ain't your mother, so set you're own boundaries for once."

"Time is here, time is right, I think I may, I know I might depart tomorrow morning on an airplane to success. I can tell you're unimpressed by my sudden burst of ambition. So take it or leave it, that's all that I'm giving. I won't say goodbye, no I won't say goodnight."

"I woke up last night, my nose was bleeding, I think I'm dying, oh...Hallelujah!"

I LOVE MY KITTY.

Even more exciting news.

2007-01-24T20:23:00.000-08:00

Tentative plans for a road trip to Pomona to see Against Me! and Fake Problems in March are being made.

I feel like dancing.

Exciting news.

2007-01-24T15:38:00.000-08:00

Bright Eyes is playing at the Great American Music Hall in March! Yippee! And the trumpet player that I love is now a permanent member. And they're putting out a new cd this Spring.

On another note, my AIM is broken. It logs me in but says none of my buddies are online, not even myself.

Today was not very good and 3/4 of my classes are boring.

May your music break my eardrums.

2007-01-19T19:58:00.000-08:00

Ah, it's been awhile. Since my last post I have discovered a couple new bands (thanks Tasha), stuck it to the man, and finished up my first term classes among other things.

Starting Monday, my schedule will be:
German 3
Physics Honors
Haypress
Advanced Photo

Oh, I also made apple-infused vodka. I started with cheap-ass Popov that tastes like rubbing alcohol at first and soaked apples in it for a week. Now it's sweet and has a hint of apple. My Dad approves. However, it turned piss yellow. You win some, you lose some.

I wrote a list of things that I hope to do before leaving for Seattle. Writing lists is fun.

My cat is on my lap.

You should listen to Latterman. This cd makes me want to be productive.

Yay!!!

2007-01-08T14:30:00.000-08:00

I GOT ACCEPTED TO THE UNIVERSITY OF WASHINGTON!!!!!

I did.

2007-01-07T22:55:00.001-08:00

Ever seen a rainbow and snow falling at the same time?

Shucks.

2007-01-03T23:30:00.001-08:00

In California you have to be 21 to be a bartender.
:(

Baby, it's fact.

2006-12-30T21:23:00.000-08:00

"You'll accomplish more later if you have a little fun this weekend."

Best fortune cookie fortune ever. And certainly appropriate for this weekend.

Happy New Year's almost!

Probably true.

2006-12-29T16:43:00.000-08:00

Jenna took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test!

"Intense, vital, and animated, taking a delight in ..."

Click here to read the rest of the results.

I'm not so sure I like all of it.

Merry Christmas!

2006-12-25T09:23:00.000-08:00

I got a cell phone for Christmas. Ask me for the number and give me yours so I can build up my phone book.

I also got a blanket, the new Hellogoodbye and Decemberists cds, a mini coffee maker for Haypress, a handheld sudoku game, a bike lock, the Firefly DVD set, and some other little things.

Happy Holidays!
See you guys later.

Low-res upload of my latest assignment for photo.

2006-12-12T21:51:00.000-08:00

Click on it to see the way it really is (the border is white, not black).

A distance the size of the ocean.

2006-12-11T20:45:00.000-08:00

I love hot chocolate with a passion. It's even better with a drop of vanilla extract in it. I wonder how horrible shots of straight vanilla would be? Probably pretty damn awful.

I tore part of an article about Bright Eyes out of a copy of Spin magazine they had at Super Cuts while I was there with Joey because there was a picture of Conor Oberst and he is pretty.

My mom freaked out today because I got a letter from University of Washington. She was scared because it was thin, but I knew it wasn't an acceptance or rejection letter because they had emailed me about sending me something, it was just some codes I need for their website. Silly parents.

I had a "wellness" appointment today. My mom did not realize when she was making the appointment that by the time it came around I would already be 18, so I had to go to the pediatric ward. I felt very out of place. I don't like hospitals and doctors as it is, but I was the oldest person there without a child of their own.

Before too long...

2006-12-05T00:00:00.000-08:00

I don't know why I'm still up.
My party was good.
It's December.
'Night.

"I know I miss more than hit."

2006-11-29T22:14:00.000-08:00

I got a purple bike and some burgundy luggage for my birthday.
Who wants to start a bike gang with me?

My feet are cold even though I have two pairs of socks and some shoes on.

"Fuck you, it's my birthday!"

2006-11-28T23:07:00.000-08:00

I'm 18!

"When no where feels like home..."

2006-11-26T21:17:00.000-08:00

Today it rained so I could not start decorating the yard for Christmas. Instead Manda and I listened to Bright Eyes Christmas carols and decorated wreaths for the windows and front door. We discovered that neither of us can tie nice bows.

My Thanksgiving ended up a lot better than I thought it would be. As expected, the adults did shots. They actually offered me one, I guess I count as an adult now. It was some specialty tequila, like made by a chef or something. They said it was smooth, I just thought it was better than warm Cuervo. They made Manda and I do the seating arrangement, again. Then they complained about where they had to sit. We played Fact or Crap. I got a pretty sweater for my birthday. My garlic mashed potatoes were a big hit.

I wrote my personal statement, finally. I guess I like it, but it really is very personal. I'm trying to decide if I should use it as one of my writing samples for this SF Writer's Conference thing. I also have to write some short answer thing for UW about cultural awareness, I think I'll write about being a minority at my school. I can probably use that for the conference, too.

Save the date!

2006-11-21T18:25:00.000-08:00

Good night.

2006-11-20T23:23:00.000-08:00

Happy Feet was the cutest movie I have ever seen.

I'm excited about Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix.
And about tomorrow.

I love not having homework.

For my birthday:

2006-11-16T18:18:00.001-08:00

Some one could sign me up for the Death Cab for Cutie fan club for my birthday.
Here's the link: http://www.dcfcunion.com/
It's $30.

I'd also like books, cds (I haven't got a new cd in at least 6 months, so anything recent is welcome), gift cards, paint, beads, etc. You guys should know me by now.

Quotations.

2006-11-15T17:32:00.000-08:00

I like this quote:

"Here's a rule I recommend: Never practice two vices at once." - Tallulah Bankhead

Too bad senior quotes were turned in today, but I guess I wouldn't have changed mine anyway.

I <3 Bright Eyes

2006-11-12T20:00:00.000-08:00

And that's how I learned the lesson that everyone's alone and your eyes must do some raining if you really want to grow. But if crying don't help, you can't compose yourself, it's best to compose a poem; an honest verse of longing or a simple song of hope. That's why I'm singing, "Baby don't worry," because now I've got your back and every time you feel like crying I'm gonna try and make you laugh. And if I can't, if it just hurts too bad, we'll just wait for it to pass. And I will keep you company in those days so long and black.
-"Bowl of Oranges"

I realized that when I go to listen to music, if I don't have a specific band in mind I default to Bright Eyes. Oh well.

My room is cold.

2006-11-11T11:39:00.000-08:00

I like sewing, especially when I actually finish something.

I think I will get my dad a nice coat for Christmas so he doesn't have to look like a hobo.

My dad and sister took my mom's car so now my mom and I are stuck here with no transportation.

I think I'll try to clean my room now.

Recovering.

2006-11-07T19:47:00.000-08:00

I'm finally feeling a little better, but I'll be staying home again tomorrow to rest. My mom is worried I might have a secondary infection or something.

In summary, I felt fine all Saturday until after dinner. At around 7:30 I started feeling sick to my stomach and within 20 minutes I was puking. I lost count of how many times I threw up and my mom called the hospital and they said I should come in. I was so dehydrated by that point that I could hardly stand. They couldn't use the machine to take my blood pressure because it was too low. They finally got it and it was like 86 over 42, very low. They gave me a room and I had to wear one of those open backed gowns and I had an IV put in to get some fluids into me. At one point when I was coming back from the bathroom I passed out in my mom's arms. All I remember is leaning on the doorway then slipping and then all of a sudden there were more hands on me and they put me in a different bed. We found out afterward that passing out isn't uncommon with the medication they gave me, especially because I was so dehydrated. Over the next 7 hours my blood pressure came up and my stomach settled down and they sent me home at around 5 in the morning. Sunday is all a blur of waking up about every two hours. Monday I slept a lot, same with today. I couldn't work the polls because I still have a fever.

Now I'm just sleepy and my stomach feels fragile but I'm getting better.

Hopefully I'll be back to normal by Thursday.

Statistics

2006-11-03T22:12:00.000-08:00

Number of times
-my new iPod has crashed while docked = 5
-it has crashed my computer while docked = 1
-I've had to restore my iPod = 1
-I've waited for it to fully charge = 0

I named it jPod.

2006-11-02T22:49:00.000-08:00

Yay!

2006-11-02T20:46:00.000-08:00

My 2nd generation Shuffle got here this morning. Silly pictures to come when it's done charging.

"We are the highway kings!"

2006-11-01T17:51:00.000-08:00

I'm gonna see:

and:

in about 2 hours.

My pumpkin.

2006-10-31T20:39:00.000-08:00

This sucks.

2006-10-31T18:19:00.000-08:00

Halloween on a weeknight sucks as a teenager.

There aren't many little kids out either.

I sing what can't be said.

2006-10-29T18:14:00.000-08:00

When you're only 17, walking past your grandmother while drinking a beer is a bit awkward. It's even more so when she's dressed as a nun.

This whole daylight savings thing rules and sucks at the same time. I woke up at like 8:30 this morning, but I went to bed at 2:00. And it was actually 2 and not pre-DST 2. (That's the bad part.) Tomorrow I'll get to sleep in for what feels like and extra hour, though, so it's even.

My pilot costume rules. But I was told that I looked like a 70's smuggler by my mother and that I looked like I could be one of those theme strippers by my brother's girlfriend. Oh well.

"If I would have known just how things would have ended up."

2006-10-24T19:05:00.000-07:00

Hey, Lauren, I fixed the comment thing. Stupid Blogger made updates to the required code without telling anyone.

Procrastinating again.

2006-10-24T18:31:00.000-07:00

No, the doctors didn't tell you that you were dying. They just collected their money and sent you on your way. But you knew all along, went on pretending nothing was wrong. You said, "I will keep my focus 'til the end." And in the journal you kept by the side of your bed you wrote nightly an aspiration of developing as an author, confessing childhood secrets of dressing up in women's clothes--compulsions you never knew the reasons to.
Will everyone you ever meet or love be just a relationship based on a false presumption? Despite everyone you ever meet or love, in the end, will you be all alone?
As the disease spread slowly through your body, pumped by your heart to the tips of your arms and your legs, your greatest fear was that your mind wouldn't last, your coherency and alertness would be the first things to fade. As your hair thinned, as the weight fell off, as your teeth blackened, as the legions spotted your skin, as you fell to your knees in the center of the stage, as you offer witness to mortality in exchange for the ticket price, as the lights blend in to the continuing noise, as all hope was finally lost; adrenaline carried one last thought to fruition, "Let this be the end, let this be the last song. Let this be the end, let all be forgiven."

That does not seem like song lyrics. It's more like a very sad story.

("Searching for a Former Clarity" by Against Me!)

Help me decide.

2006-10-21T18:17:00.000-07:00

I have too many options for Halloween costumes.

Should I be a dinosaur, Stalin, a pilot, or a generic superhero?

We have a spy among us.

2006-10-18T19:57:00.000-07:00

I hope I don't have any homework tomorrow night so I can get some stuff ready for Downtown Rally. I just spent about 45 minutes crafting the best design ever for a stencil for the purple shirt I bought to wear. I wish we could have stuck with blue, stupid gang affiliation.

Now I have to work on this group project for government. I hate group projects because I am too much of a perfectionist and I can't trust anyone else to do it right. Unless I'm in a group with Jennifer Son, she's the only person I've ever trusted to finish a group project because I know she's smarter than me and more of a perfectionist. She had our stats project done by my standards like 3 days early, and then she improved it before we handed it in. That girl is ridiculously motivated.

I feel phlegmy.

2006-10-16T20:09:00.000-07:00

Still sick.

Added another coat to my collection, hopefully I'll wear this one. What am I talking about? I WILL. This coat seems like it was made for me. I will wear it as soon as I replace a button.

I have to do my homework now so that I can watch Heroes later. I wish I had seen the first 3 episodes.

2006-10-13T20:48:00.000-07:00

I'm sick.

Ich bin sleepy.

2006-10-12T21:18:00.000-07:00

My Shuffle is taking too long to ship.

Oh, nevermind, I'm too tired.

Ich bin excited.

2006-10-10T20:42:00.001-07:00

SEVEN WEEKS UNTIL I'M 18!

Number crunching.

2006-10-09T22:00:00.000-07:00

I decided to write my required 12th grade history research paper on abolishing the electoral college. (My first idea was to detail a campaign for Jon Stewart for president, but I don't think I could make that 8 pages.) I was looking around Wikipedia (oooh, how unreliable of a source) to be sure and I calculated that a vote for president in Texas is worth nearly four times less than on in Wyoming. California has one electoral vote for about every 656,948 people and Texas has one for every 672,352 people, while Wyoming has one for only every 169,764 people. (Texas seems to have lowest percentage of electoral votes and Wyoming the highest from my calculations.) This is yucky.

"Say that you'll stay for one more year."

2006-10-05T20:19:00.000-07:00

Why did I have two separate dreams about two different people dying? They were sad.

I should print my own DTR t-shirts. The ones leadership are selling are ugly.

I suck at painting my nails.

To the people I live with:

2006-10-02T21:46:00.001-07:00

Why can't I just be pissed for once? I am usually there, ready to help, no complaints, for everyone in this house, sometimes I just need to be mad. I can't even have a bad mood without everyone making me feel guilty about it. LET ME BE GRUMPY. Don't ask if you can help, don't act all hurt when I snap at you. You know damn well that I handle my bad moods ten times better than anyone else here, and mine are far less frequent. Even if I've been having a bad day at school I'm not usually upset at home. This is rare, but necessary. I can't just say okay, no problem all the damn time. I need to sulk, I need to yell and slam doors, I need to set everything down with way too much force. What I'd really like to do is smash things in the street, like that stupid Furby you won't let me get rid of. WTF? I carry around a lot of stress. Yes, most of it is probably self-imposed, but telling me I should be less hard on myself isn't going to suddenly make me accept my faults and be content. Everyone else gets to be mad without me whimpering about it, can't you extend that same right to me?

How hard is it to leave me alone?!

AND DON'T EVER GO IN MY ROOM WHEN I'M NOT HOME AGAIN.

I want these.

2006-10-01T20:06:00.000-07:00

Yay! October!

2006-10-01T19:25:00.000-07:00

It's the first day of October and it was actually cold. And cloudy. This is how Fall is supposed to be. I think our seasons are crooked, like a week early or something. Since it was cold, I could wear my thermal. I walked to Trader Joe's and bought stuff to make stew. They have cute little tiny potatoes. I made stew for diner and it was delicious. Everyone should be disappointed that they didn't get to have my stew for dinner. I got bored again after dinner so I walked to Safeway to get eggs and desert and got myself a mocha at Starbucks. I listened to Against Me! and Bloc Party and Bright Eyes and wore a scarf (it wasn't quite cold enough for the scarf, but oh well). I didn't see a single person in a tank top or shorts. Finally. It's supposed to be even colder the rest of the week. Maybe even some rain. I'm excited.

I want Doc Martens and a bike for my birthday.

iTunes survey thing.

2006-09-30T20:53:00.001-07:00

Sort By Artist:
First Song: The (International) Noise Conspiracy - "Smash it Up"
Last Song: Zwan - "Lyric"

Sort By Song Title:
First Song: Descendants - " 'Merican"
Last Song: Fluke - "Zion"

Sort By Album Title:
First Song: Oasis - (What's the Story) Morning Glory - "Hello"
Last Song: Franz Ferdinand - You Could Have it So Much Better - "Outsiders"
(That's the last with an album listed.)

Sort By Song Time:
First Song: The Offspring - "Welcome" (0:09)
Last Song: Bright Eyes - "Tereza and Thomas" (25:46)
(I have some comedy recordings that are longer, but they don't count.)

First 5 Songs That Come Up On Shuffle:
1. The Lawrence Arms - "Alert the Audience"
2. Tripping Daisy - "Noose"
3. Audrye Sessions - "Nothing Pure Can Stay"
4. Cake - "Arco Arena"
5. Yellowcard - "Breathing"

Search:
"sex" - How many songs come up?: 23
"love" - How many songs come up?: 73
"you" - How many songs come up?: 338
"death" - How many songs come up?: 38
"hate" - How many songs come up?: 43
"wish" - How many songs come up?: 25

Totals:
Songs: 2913
Artists: 533
Albums: 381
Genres: 56
Time: 7.3 days
Size: 10.95 gb

This just in!

2006-09-28T22:54:00.000-07:00

E-40 reportedly has a kid going to school with Josh at Dublin Valley Christian High School.

"Like ballots drifting into the ocean."

2006-09-28T19:57:00.000-07:00

Senior "picnic" tomorrow. At Boomers. I hope it's fun. Breakfast first at Baker's Square with Lauren.

I should read more.

I should be more outgoing.

I need to learn to be mad but not upset.

"The mistakes are obvious. The faults are glaring. The plane is on fire. The fucking ship is sinking. And you're swept away in a hurricane, buried in the rubble of an earthquake. It's terminal, inoperable, they're amputating, massive hemorrhaging, major fucking complications."

Never Again.

2006-09-27T20:44:00.000-07:00

I was in the tiny Haypress computer room for like 5 straight hours today.

Today was a blur.

"So we're doing this wild, huh?"

2006-09-26T22:32:00.000-07:00

I need to attend more city council meetings. Not for the politics, it was a little dry, but for the distractingly attractive reporter there. Isabel says he's there all the time. Crystal and I named him Tom. We name them all Tom. Really, there are like 5 now. Damn, city council meetings are Tuesdays at 8, same as House. NO ONE TELL ME WHAT HAPPENED IN THIS EPISODE.

I wrote my first editorial for the paper today. I feel powerful. Too bad no one reads the editorial.

Update: I went to pick some scissors up off my bed and I closed them too soon and cut a little hole in my sheet. I suck.

"I got kicked out of my storage space last night."

2006-09-25T22:16:00.000-07:00

Next time I should go to the laundry-mat a little further into Castro Valley. Hopefully it would have less drunken homeless guys yelling about drums being the most complicated instrument and how they didn't have to make it a criminal matter.