Are you restless like me?

Yes, I realize I'm only 16 and really have no idea what I'm talking about.

Why does she get to have him? She's so far away. But she's so much, I don't know, more than me, I guess. He never really gave me a chance. I guess I didn't make a big impression. He rarely even notices me, now. Though I think it's worse when he does notice me.
Damn him and his headphones and his little swagger no one else notices, and maybe it's just a novelty now. I'm not even sure if it's about him anymore. I wish feelings could be editted and rearranged or just flat out deleted like what I'm typing.
"What does [she] have that I don't, besides timing and your heart?" -Only On Tuesdays
"And I knew it was impossible, but I loved you just the same." -Bob Franke

{All of that was inspired by the book I just read.}

When I was little and somehow the topic of being rich or not rich would come up my mom would tell me that our family is rich with love. And it is. I didn't really get it then, though I do now. My life isn't particularly hard or anything, it's just I don't really have any connections. Lately I've been feeling off and I can't stand anyone or anything for very long. As of right now I can't see myself as best friends with anyone I know. Yes, I love all of my friends a great deal, but there's something missing. That person who is just there all the time and you don't mind when they just sit there or don't say anything. That person who is ready and wiling to try out the things you like to do and teach you how to do the stuff they like to do. That person who is supposed to always be there and change with you but not grow apart. That person who knows that they're automatically invited. The majority of my friends have someone who hey consider their best friend or the equivalent, some have more than one.

Maybe I'm just asking too much.

I really hope no one is upset by this, but it's the truth, for the moment.