Are you restless like me?

I have a weird range of social behaviors, depending on who I'm with.

When I'm with my "chemistry buddies," who include Sarah T., Justin, Angela, and others, I tend to be the one who carries the conversation. When they're sitting down, I'm standing up in front of them. I'm very talkative, I tell stories (some are exaggerated) and make a lot of silly jokes. We're laughing most of the time. I'm not the only one talking though, I think I'm just the loudest. This also goes for when I'm with only, or mostly, strangers. Oddly enough, I start talking. For example, when I went to this murder-mystery thing earlier this year I only knew one person, Carolyn. She introduced me to a few people, but she was busy most of the time. I talked to a bunch of people, I was animated and witty and everything. People thought I was one of the actors.

Then, when I'm with the people I'm the most comfortable with, Lani, Lauren, Tasha, April, Janelle, Stephanie, etc., I'm more reserved. And when I do try to tell a story or make a joke, it usually falls flat. At least, that's how I see it.

Now, I'm not exactly sure if this is purely from being around different types of people or if the timing has anything to do with it. I'm with Sarah and them in the mornings, right after my cup of coffee, I'm still fresh. By the time history and lunch roll around and I hang out with Tasha and everyone, I'm tired and bored already.

Then there's the old friends, Christina, Susan, Jenny, Crystal. Around them I'm a mixture of the two. But if there's someone else around who I don't know very well I'm nearly silent. When it's just us I get pretty sarcastic. I'm the odd one in that group, the "outcast," if you will, and I tend to play the part.


Feel free to let me know if you see things differently. I don't mind if it's not something I'd particularly like to hear. I'd rather someone tell me when I make an ass of myself then worry about them thinking about it later, or even worse, talking about it with someone else.

I'd rather people forgot I existed when I wasn't around than talk about me, even if it's complimentary.