Are you restless like me?

I'm sort of glad that it's cold this week. I can't wear shorts for a little while. I bought wax for my legs but for best results the hair is supposed to be 1/4" long (not so attractive, I know). That means no shaving for a while, which means no shorts. However, I am not glad that it is supposed to rain tomorrow because my car only has one windshield wiper and is just generally not as fun and easy to drive in the rain. Plus, the water makes the breaks squeak and it's embarrassing. Speaking of my car, my dad and I finally put in the cassette deck so I can listen to static-free music. We didn't completely finish it, we still need to adjust the faceplate and everything, but it works and doesn't wiggle too much. Also, we didn't hook up the rear speakers because a)we didn't have the correct wires, and b)the rear speakers are sorta blown out so I might get new ones first. Overall, it sounds pretty awesome regardless. Except for the tape adapter for my Shuffle, that sounds pretty tinny and the tape part clicks, so I'm just going to get the little minjack-to-minijack cord for it. Hopefully that'll sound better because the whole reason I bought the new deck was so that I could connect my shuffle and have it sound good. For now I will satisfy myself with actually listening to all the tapes I've bought used and/or inherited.

I'm 99.99999% sure that I am not going to prom. I bought a dress already, but it was only $4 at Thrift Town and I'm not so happy with it anyway. I changed my mind because I realized I would be pretty much the only one out of the people I socialize with that won't have a date. I was always a little uneasy because of the dateless thing along with the fact that I don't really dance, especially not to the type of music that will be played. And the whole thing is so damn expensive! It would be like paying $75 to hang around in an outfit I'm not really comfortable in, listening to crappy music, with a few friends but mostly people that I try to forget. If I had a date, whether it were just as friends or not, I might be more inclined because then I'd at least have one person who's definitely going to be with me the whole night. As it is, though, I have a feeling I'd end up either sitting alone or with people I don't like very much and complaining most of the time. I'd rather partake in some other form of festivities that don't cost as much.

I can't sleep. I probably should because we start at 10:10 tomorrow rather than 12 like today, but I had two cups of iced coffee (homemade, thankyouverymuch). Also, I have like this window of tiredness between 11-12 that if I stay awake through it I get some sort of second wind and can stay up until about 3. And if I combine that with the consumption of caffeine I get rather hyper and long-winded, as you may be able to tell by this unusually drawn out post. Carolyn can vouch for this whole phenomenon, it happened once at her house. Her grandma said that I probably talked more that night than all the other times I've hung out over there combined. I doubt that, though, but I'm sure I talked quite a bit. I also threw a paper airplane at Carolyn a lot. Phil made it for me out of a Legos catalog and I used it to wake Carolyn up, she kept dosing off. That night we had watched Monty Python and the Holy Grail and I did not enjoy it very much. My mom assured me that it is better while drunk. I liked the Life of Brian one, and I was sober when I watched it, so...I don't really know what that says about the whole thing though.

I don't really like boys at the moment. Or, I don't really like their effect on the way girls spend their time. One of my two best friends is no longer single and the other one is probably pretty close to not being single, or at least not really single. Anyway, by the end of next week, hell, maybe by the end of this week they'll both have boys to attend to. And I won't. Instead, I'll have two best friends who are now busier than they were a few weeks ago and no one to fill in the gaps. I know they aren't going to ditch me or anything, they aren't those kinds of girls, but they will have less time to spend just the three of us. Either one or more of the boys will come along with us or one or more of the girls will be off with their boy. I'm just feeling pretty cynical about the whole situation even though it will probably work out better than I imagine.

One highlight in the immediate future is that I'll be going to see Bright Eyes in Berkeley on Friday. I'm very excited even though this is my second time seeing them because now I know and love a much larger portion of the Bright Eyes catalog. I can't wait to sing along to "Four Winds". And I really hope they play some older stuff like "Haligh, Haligh, A Lie, Haligh" and "Bowl of Oranges". I can't decide if I should bring my camera. I did last time and got a few acceptable shots, but this show is outside and I just don't want the burden of a camera. I'm going with pretty much the same group as last time, my brother, his girlfriend, plus her sister and her sister's friend. There were some other kids I didn't know that came to the last one, but they didn't really count as they didn't stay with us the whole time.

Gosh, I wrote a novel. I wrote for about 36 minutes. I'm starting to feel another wave of sleepiness coming on and I'm gonna try to catch this one. 'Night.