Are you restless like me?

Camarie's birthday party is on Friday and I guess I'm supposed to wear a dress and heels. I have one not-so-great dress and have never worn heels in my life. So I think I might go to the thrift store and find the tackiest thing there that fits me. Not sure yet.

ONCE THIS WEEK IS OVER ONLY GOOD THINGS ARE LEFT. (School-wise, at least.)

So I didn't go to prom. But that didn't stop me from going to an after party. I only really knew one person there because a bunch of people ended up not showing, but that didn't matter after awhile. Those kids were hilarious. Everyone there got along fine even though there had been speculation about clashes. The kids who had gone to prom didn't get there until like 3 and we were up until about 6:30, it felt like a lot longer then three and a half hours though. Then I like napped for an hour and took some kid home and slept in my own bed. I've sort of been laying around all day since. Good night.

The ASB convention was horrible. I walked past a dead cat on my way to Trader Joe's. I sold 3 slices of Little Caesar's pizza for $1 each. The competition to give a speech at graduation is on Wednesday, I wrote my speech in physics today. Lots of things are going on and it's all making me tired.

He said I could do whatever I wanted with it and flowers were really tempting, but I can't draw flowers. I AM WILLING TO PAINT STUFF ON THINGS FOR YOU. It will either be free or pretty cheap, depending on what it is and how much I like you.

It's still quite warm in my room. And tomorrow is supposed to be warmer. I gave up on waiting to wax my legs because I definitely don't want to wear jeans tomorrow. This weekend felt really long, which was nice. I didn't have any homework either. This whole week felt pretty long, actually. I did a lot. I ended up seeing Against Me! with Tasha and Wednesday. It was so great. I had to suffer through Cursive, though, but we had fun mocking them. And we met a cute boy from Pleasant Hill. He was hilarious. But I'm hell of lame and didn't even think of trying to get his phone number. I need to stop being so timid. On Friday I made my way up the giant hill that is the Berkeley campus to see Bright Eyes. Again, SO GREAT. And my brother's girlfriend's sister and her friend are pretty cool this time around, we bonded over AM! and BE trivia. Saturday was Cinco de Mayo. I hung out with Carolyn, Camarie, and Tom. I learned a valuable lesson. Today I slept in quite late and then braved the heat to go get ice cream with Carolyn, Tom, and their friend Jake. We ended up at East Avenue Park just sitting in the grass. Carolyn wants me to be Jake's "date" to CVHS' prom. I can't decide if I should or not. Jake's not that bad, I mean I'm not interested in him or anything like that but I think I could stand him for a night. But I barely know anyone at CVHS and most of the people there I probably don't want to know. I'd be uncomfortable enough at my own prom in a dress and make up and shit, I don't think being surrounded by rude strangers would make me feel any better. I know Carolyn will be there, but as much as she says she won't, she'll probably spend most of her time with Tom. It's prom after all, and you should spend it with someone you care about. I just don't know.

Oh, I added messaging to my phone plan. Now I can send and receive text/video/picture messages without paying a million dollars each time. Send me something!

How cute is that?!

I'm sort of glad that it's cold this week. I can't wear shorts for a little while. I bought wax for my legs but for best results the hair is supposed to be 1/4" long (not so attractive, I know). That means no shaving for a while, which means no shorts. However, I am not glad that it is supposed to rain tomorrow because my car only has one windshield wiper and is just generally not as fun and easy to drive in the rain. Plus, the water makes the breaks squeak and it's embarrassing. Speaking of my car, my dad and I finally put in the cassette deck so I can listen to static-free music. We didn't completely finish it, we still need to adjust the faceplate and everything, but it works and doesn't wiggle too much. Also, we didn't hook up the rear speakers because a)we didn't have the correct wires, and b)the rear speakers are sorta blown out so I might get new ones first. Overall, it sounds pretty awesome regardless. Except for the tape adapter for my Shuffle, that sounds pretty tinny and the tape part clicks, so I'm just going to get the little minjack-to-minijack cord for it. Hopefully that'll sound better because the whole reason I bought the new deck was so that I could connect my shuffle and have it sound good. For now I will satisfy myself with actually listening to all the tapes I've bought used and/or inherited.

I'm 99.99999% sure that I am not going to prom. I bought a dress already, but it was only $4 at Thrift Town and I'm not so happy with it anyway. I changed my mind because I realized I would be pretty much the only one out of the people I socialize with that won't have a date. I was always a little uneasy because of the dateless thing along with the fact that I don't really dance, especially not to the type of music that will be played. And the whole thing is so damn expensive! It would be like paying $75 to hang around in an outfit I'm not really comfortable in, listening to crappy music, with a few friends but mostly people that I try to forget. If I had a date, whether it were just as friends or not, I might be more inclined because then I'd at least have one person who's definitely going to be with me the whole night. As it is, though, I have a feeling I'd end up either sitting alone or with people I don't like very much and complaining most of the time. I'd rather partake in some other form of festivities that don't cost as much.

I can't sleep. I probably should because we start at 10:10 tomorrow rather than 12 like today, but I had two cups of iced coffee (homemade, thankyouverymuch). Also, I have like this window of tiredness between 11-12 that if I stay awake through it I get some sort of second wind and can stay up until about 3. And if I combine that with the consumption of caffeine I get rather hyper and long-winded, as you may be able to tell by this unusually drawn out post. Carolyn can vouch for this whole phenomenon, it happened once at her house. Her grandma said that I probably talked more that night than all the other times I've hung out over there combined. I doubt that, though, but I'm sure I talked quite a bit. I also threw a paper airplane at Carolyn a lot. Phil made it for me out of a Legos catalog and I used it to wake Carolyn up, she kept dosing off. That night we had watched Monty Python and the Holy Grail and I did not enjoy it very much. My mom assured me that it is better while drunk. I liked the Life of Brian one, and I was sober when I watched it, so...I don't really know what that says about the whole thing though.

I don't really like boys at the moment. Or, I don't really like their effect on the way girls spend their time. One of my two best friends is no longer single and the other one is probably pretty close to not being single, or at least not really single. Anyway, by the end of next week, hell, maybe by the end of this week they'll both have boys to attend to. And I won't. Instead, I'll have two best friends who are now busier than they were a few weeks ago and no one to fill in the gaps. I know they aren't going to ditch me or anything, they aren't those kinds of girls, but they will have less time to spend just the three of us. Either one or more of the boys will come along with us or one or more of the girls will be off with their boy. I'm just feeling pretty cynical about the whole situation even though it will probably work out better than I imagine.

One highlight in the immediate future is that I'll be going to see Bright Eyes in Berkeley on Friday. I'm very excited even though this is my second time seeing them because now I know and love a much larger portion of the Bright Eyes catalog. I can't wait to sing along to "Four Winds". And I really hope they play some older stuff like "Haligh, Haligh, A Lie, Haligh" and "Bowl of Oranges". I can't decide if I should bring my camera. I did last time and got a few acceptable shots, but this show is outside and I just don't want the burden of a camera. I'm going with pretty much the same group as last time, my brother, his girlfriend, plus her sister and her sister's friend. There were some other kids I didn't know that came to the last one, but they didn't really count as they didn't stay with us the whole time.

Gosh, I wrote a novel. I wrote for about 36 minutes. I'm starting to feel another wave of sleepiness coming on and I'm gonna try to catch this one. 'Night.