Are you restless like me?

Is it wrong to enjoy precalculus?

Well, so far it's just review, but it's not the work I like, it's the class. That class is turning me into an even bigger geek, the mathy kind. I never thought I'd say I liked math again after 7th grade (Ms. Kennis, ew.)

Ignore my faux watermark. (For those less-savvy people that's the blue thing that says "by jenna".) I Really like this as an idea for a shirt or other item. Any thoughts?


My dad bought "gourmet" Hamburger Helper. No matter what you call it or what you add to it, Hamburger Helper just tastes like Hamburger Helper. They all taste the same. He should have just bought spaghetti sauce.

I hate group projects with a passion. All they do is stress me out, I can't trust other people with my grade.

Try and figure out the code: (it's not very hard at all)
Wzmmb'h z uzrofiv.

Enjoy Your Day.

(I'm writing this while rocking out to old New Found Glory, I'm so cool.)

I was trying to kill time before Lauren's bowling-o-rama party (that's the name I gave it), so I was looking around the Oriental Trading site. They have some very odd things. First, there's these creepy smiley face things.


Then they give them bibles, and it makes them creepier.


And my favorite smiley face item ever. The purple one is the sex.


I really need to order some stuff from there, and hand it out to everyone.

[Edit]
I need these.


And these.


Here's some more neat-o stuff.
-For Lauren, Leilani, and April.
-This somehow doesn't seem right.
-For Stephindie, look at them all disassembled, and check out the squirrel.
-"Try God".
-Again, this doesn't seem right.

Okay, I think that's enough.

Today my mom drove us over all seven hills of Seven Hills Road.

People in Castro Valley still turn on their Christmas lights.

My neighbor Steve is moving very soon.

This weekend came just in time. I like my classes, but they are draining.

"These walls are paper thin and everyone hears every little sound."

That is so my house.

I have soup. It has green beans. It is not such good food.

Wood shop is just flat out uncomfortable. No, I won't smile. Maybe I should do what Danny suggested and start talking about "my boyfriend," but that has some flaws. One) someone doesn't have to like me to annoy me, and two) I don't like to lie and I'm not very good at it. I guess I'll just have to sit it out and see what happens. Maybe if I'm rude or something he'll get the picture. But I don't know how to handle the other problem in that class, my stalker. I hope he just doesn't show up anymore or something. I was so freaked when I walked over to the class and saw him and the other kid I had to walk Mamed halfway to class before I went inside with Danny. Things like this make me VERY uncomfortable. I can't stand people looking at me.

Oh, ew, vanilla coke and chicken soup do not mix.

Anyway, Christina and I agree that Mr. Fregeau is like a math robot who is slowly developing emotions and a very dry sense of humor. I was writing stuff down, like notes to myself kind of, and I drew a picture of him as a math robot and Christina laughed at me.

Lately I've been writing things down during class, in the same way I write things here. It's not that I need to write it to remember I just like writing things. I like describing things that are going on and I like to try to put what I'm thinking into sentences. In chemistry I made a seating chart without any names, I just put a very brief description of each person, maybe I'll scan it later. Now I have to go do my homework.

I typed this whole thing with my fingernails.

Fresh from the rumor mill that is my highschool:

Either I know who my stalker is, or I have two. This erks me. Granted, it is only hearsay as of yet, but there are other factors that back it up. Again, this whole thing bothers me a great deal.

My math class=relaxing. I never thought I'd ever say I liked a math class, but precal is shaping up to be my favorite. I love quiet classes and dorky math jokes.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HOLGER!!!!!





Can I really trust a chemistry text book that gets the names of schools and cities of the contributors wrong? It lists one teacher at "Tennyson High School, Haywood, California", and another at "Aragone High School, San Mateo, California". That last one is Aya's school, it's Aragon, no e at the end. And maybe there really is a Haywood, CA, but I doubt it has a Tennyson High. How many other mistakes did they miss? Geez, people these days...

Anyway, I actually had a good day at school for once. I like my new classes so far. I have, in order, chemistry (honors, but I don't get the extra point as a sophomore, just more work), then accelerated world history, pre-calculus, and last and maybe least wood shop. I'm the only girl in my wood shop class. Some girls may look at that as a good thing, but they haven't seen the guys in my class. And I quote, "Are you gonna uhh....be grading us with umm letters or ummm a percent?" Okay, so that probably wasn't word for word, but it was just as stupid sounding. I thought that since Danny was in the class I'd be okay, but the kid can't stop giggling. I hope Mr. Bower doesn't say "vulgarity" anymore, or Danny and Jesse will be standing outside.

Well, I've finished my third cup of coffee, so it's time to do some of my homework.

Well, two thirds of the my three day weekend is gone, here's how I spent the latest one.

Sorry about the geocities thing.

I didn't want to make this page load any slower. If there's some empty spots on that page just refresh and it should work. Again, sorry about the ads and such.

I hate my digital camera. I had taken a bunch of pictures at that lonely Muckruckers show Joey and I went to in October and it deleted all but 6 of them. Here:



Either that, or my sister is a major bitch and deleted them, but I'm thinking it was the camera.

My mom's van wouldn't turn off and then the starter burned out or something, there was smoke. It smelt bad. They just spent like $4,000 a few months ago to get it in tip-top shape. So much for that.

I got scented markers like I used in kindergarten from a thrift store. Most of them still smell good, especially the brown one, cinnamon. I remember it was my favorite.

[Edit: Danny, sorry I didn't get ahold of you about the stencil show.]

How the hell is it 5:06 already?

I showered. That's it. That's the only thing I did.

Yesterday was supposed to be a fitting beginning for this three-day-no-homework-weekend-of-fun. But no, it looks like it was a one afternoon deal. Shit.

Yes, the Interpol show is sold out, but I'm not crying over this one. I like the band, but for some reason I wasn't so set on going.

I realized I have nothing to do this weekend. There are some things I'd like to do, but I doubt they'll happen.
Here's a list of what I'd like to do, and why it probably won't get done:

+Go see Mike Park at the Gilman tomorrow (Saturday). I have no one to go with.
+Go to the beach. Kind of too last minute to ask my mom.
+Get some sewing done. I can't decide on a project.
+See The Muckruckers. They aren't playing anywhere this weekend, that I know of.
+Go to that stencil exhibition in San Francisco. I have no ride or accompaniment.

That's all I can think of for the moment.

I like the writing in that East Bay Express newspaper. It would be cool to get an internship there, alas, I'm only a lowly sophomore in high school and they give those things to college students.

I don't want to talk about people anymore.

I got a haircut!

I found my blue sunglasses!

We have applesauce!

The term is almost over!

There's cute little birds in my plum tree!

I'm making spaghetti for dinner!

We have another three day weekend coming up!

I won't have ANY homework!

I took down our Christmas decorations!

I might have a summer job this year!

We only have three days of school this week!

I got my first comments from strangers on my blog! (Thank you Aacantha and Mr. Strauss, whoever you are.)

I found a cd I had forgotten about!

And now for the downer part of the entry,
I have to do my homework. I have finals this week. I got something on my favorite jacket.

That's all!

I glued together another paper entry last night, but I haven't had access to the scanner yet, so you'll have to wait.

"The trouble is, that you're in love with someone else, it should be me." -Interpol.

I love that line. I have to buy my ticket for their show on the 15th. Lani, have you ordered yours yet? Stephanie, can you come?

Haha, livejournal is down. Sucks for you guys.

I got some neat t-shirts to make fit me. One says Stanton Stars, I love it, it has a bunch of stars on it. I also got the Breakfast Club soundtrack tape. I didn't even like the movie very much, but how could I pass it up for 69 cents? "Don't You" is on it in all its warped-twangy-80's-bad-recording glory.

Almost all of the purple has faded from my hair. I think I'll add some pink chunks this weekend. I need a hair cut. My mom wants me to keep it like this, but I threatened to cut it myself and she wouldn't like that. I'm the only healthy one in my house. And I've retreated to my room, for two reasons; 1) I don't want to get sick, 2) They keep asking me to do things for them. I guess my dad isn't sick, but he always thinks he's sick.

I think I'll start on another entry to scan. Maybe a smaller one, I can't think of anything else to glue/tape to it. I Y rubber cement.

Hey, look: Cj It's Ass-win. Oh no!

I've written two entries on paper in the past few days, but both of them were kind of time sensitive and I waited too long to post them, so I'll write this as I go along.

Not that she reads this, but HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY, SUSAN!! The balloon Christina and I picked out for her was the best ever.



I've made a list of bands that I'm looking for the cd's of so I can rip them and enrich my iPod. I'll have to condense it some, it's a little lengthy. If you have any of these I'd love to borrow them.

+ Eve 6
+ No Doubt ("Tragic Kingdom" only.)
+ Green Day
+ Classic rock such as CCR and old Rolling Stones, Tasha should lend me some Skynyrd.
+ Oasis
+ Alkaline Trio
+ The Get Up Kids
+ Weezer
+ Radiohead
+ Sparta
+ At The Drive-In
+ The Vandals
+ Guttermouth
+ Millencolin
+ Bouncing Souls
+ Bad Religion
+ Incubus
+ Death Cab For Cutie
+ Queen
+ R.E.M.
+ Moby (maybe.)
+ Cake
+ Beck
+ Blur
+ Bright Eyes
+ The Cure
+ Finch
+ Hot Hot Heat
+ White Stripes
+ Interpol
+ Me First and the Gimmie Gimmies
+ Midtown
+ The Offspring
+ Rufio
+ Sloppy Meateaters
+ The Stills
+ They Might Be Giants

I'd love to hear anyone else's favorite cds.

This is the coolest lamp ever. I found it in the clip art that came with my computer, I was putting off doing my English homework.




My mom baked the most hilarious muffin ever. She didn't have a muffin pan so she was using the foil cups, but she ran out, so she tried just paper. It didn't work.



I'll leave you with that.

Oh, how I miss my dearest Solemite. I remember when I read that they had played their last show already I cried. Yes, I'm a crybaby. Even though it had been 18+ only, I wouldn't have been able to go if I tried. But then they decided to play one last all ages show. It was great. Manda and I made shirts to say goodbye. They loved them. And Aya and Justine were there, and we all danced. And Suburban Legends played, and we danced even more. The guys from Solemite gave us hugs. I hope they do something new soon.

We went to one show out in Pacifica that they played. I swear there were less than 50 people there and everyone was sitting down. We had fun. They sang to us. They had a little donation jar that said "Damn the man, save the Solemite van." Their van had been repossessed. This ska band from Seattle played, too. The guys playing the trumpets and trombones were running around the room a lot. One of them almost hit Crystal with his trombone.

I miss going to Orangepeal.

Back to my crybaby-ness. I cried when I thought the Stellastarr* show was sold out, but my dad bought tickets in person. I cried when we came home from my first Warped Tour show and it was only 3 and we had only seen 4 bands. I cried when last year's Warped sold out and I hadn't got tickets yet. My daddy (I love him) went and bought scalped tickets for my sister and I. I cried when the show I was going to go to with Aya a few weeks ago, The Matches in Oakland, sold out. I can't remember if I cried when Not So Silent Night sold out, I don't think so.

I think this shows that A) I need to start buying tickets right when they go on sale, and B) I need to toughen up.

I also need new pants. I wish I could sew my own jeans. Alas, I'm not nearly skilled enough.

Manda is better, she'll be home tomorrow probably.

Does anyone want some patches? I've got "smile" and "listen." I'm planning on making "look" or "watch" soon. Name some colors and I'll see what I can do. Everyone should have one of my patches. Handmade patches are cool.


"I wish we never grew apart 'cause I'm still the same, and it's a shame, without you I just feel retarded." I <3 Ryan Hayford (the RY).

This is bad. Very bad. I can't think of anything else to do but write this.

So much for sleeping. (note: it's 1 am.)

Long distance relationships DON'T WORK.

From now on, I will only, and not very often, take quizzes from Lani's lj. Here's the latest, because I'm putting off my homework.

LASTS
Last cigarette: NEVER. ew.
Last car ride: Going home from school.
Last good cry: I cried earlier (someone got really sick), but it wasn't good.
Last kiss: October, 2003. It wasn't enjoyed.
Last phone call: My daddy called on his way home.
Last shoes worn: My 'Roos. Beat that.
Last song played: "The Sound of Settling" Death Cab for Cutie
Last item bought: Peanut M&M's at lunch.
Last annoyance: Homework.
Last website visited: Blogger home page, Danny's lj before that.
Last words you said: "Thanks, mom"
Last song you sang: "Ole!" (Manda's phone rang)
What color of underwear are you wearing? Yellow
What's under your bed?: School books, paper, shoes
What time did you wake up today?: 5:50 am, got up at 6:05 am

FUTURE
Where do you want to go? Lots of places, mainly Europe.
What is your career going to be? Some sort of journalist, I think
Where are you going to live? Montara Beach, or someplace like it
How many kids do you want? 2, I think
What kind of car(s): Something I don't mind gluing stuff to, probably.

CURRENT
Current mood: worried
Current music: "Transatlanticism" Death Cab, I've been listening to this CD for days.
Current taste: Chocolate ice cream
Current hair: The same it's been since I got out of the shower this morning
Current clothes: socks, jeans, explodingdog.com shirt I painted, my hot air balloon sweatshirt.
Current hate: People getting hurt

(X) - you've done(_) - you haven't done

(_) been drunk
(_) been high
(X) kissed a member of the opposite sex
(_) kissed a member of the same sex
(_) crashed a friend's car
(_) been to Japan
(X) ridden in a taxi
(_) been dumped
(_) been in a fist fight
(_) snuck out of my parent's house
(X) ever dated someone of the opposite sex
(_) ever dated someone of the same sex
(X) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
(_) been arrested
(_) made out with a stranger
(_) Stole something from my job
(_) celebrated new years in times square
(_) gone on a blind date
(_) had a crush on a teacher
(_) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
(_) been to Europe
(_) skipped school
(_) cut myself on purpose
(_) been married
(_) gotten divorced
(_) had children
(_) seen someone die
(_) been to Africa
(X) punched a friend when playing around
(_) been to Canada
(_) been to Mexico
(_) been on a plane
(_) seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
(_) thrown up in a bar
(_) purposely set a part of myself on fire
(_) eaten sushi
(_) been snowboarding
(X) met someone in person from the internet (Manda's Adam)
(X) been moshing at a concert \m/
(_) had real feelings for someone you knew only online
(_) been in an abusive relationship (verbal)
(_) taken painkillers

UNIQUE
1. Nervous Habits? Telling stupid stories.
2. Are you double jointed? No.
3. Can you roll your tongue? No. :(
4. Can you raise one eyebrow at a time? Yes.
5. Can you blow spit bubble? I used to be able to.
6. Can you cross your eyes? Yes.
7. Piercings and where? One hole in each ear, no unnecessary pain for me.
8. Do you make your bed daily? No
10. Which shoe goes on first? Whichever is closest.
12. On the average, how much money do you carry in your wallet? Around $10-15
13. What jewelry do you wear? My rings (2 everyday) and usually some other stuff.
14. Favorite piece of clothing? I think I'd have to say my fake Members Only jacket or my Baum shirt.

FOOD
15. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? Twirl.
16. Have you ever eaten Spam? I've tried it, yuck.
17. Favorite ice cream flavor? Cookie dough or Phish Phood
18. Favorite candy treat? Caramels
19. Ideal bagel? Onion or Cinnamon Raisin with cream cheese
20. How many cereals in your cabinet? At least 3 half-full boxes of stale stuff, my dad won't through any away. He feeds it to the dog.


Ok, that's more than enough.

I am feeling a little better today.

I wish I didn't need to sleep, I could get a lot more done that way. If I didn't have to sleep my room would be clean, my books would be read, my stuff would be stenciled, and I wouldn't have an ever growing list of CD's to burn for people. My apologies to those who have been promised CD's and have yet to receive them.

Lately I've been coming up with things I should write in here through out the day and now I can't remember what I actually posted in previous entries.

I did all of tonight's math homework. Ellipses are easier to graph than parabolas and hyperbolas.

I have discovered/decided that I do not like:
+Mates of State
+The Shins
+The Smiths
+Rilo Kiley
+Deerhoof
+Cursive
+The Music

Would anyone care to give me a reason to reconsider my discoveries/decisions?

Auf wiedersehen.

The sweetest thing ever.

Yes, I realize I'm only 16 and really have no idea what I'm talking about.

Why does she get to have him? She's so far away. But she's so much, I don't know, more than me, I guess. He never really gave me a chance. I guess I didn't make a big impression. He rarely even notices me, now. Though I think it's worse when he does notice me.
Damn him and his headphones and his little swagger no one else notices, and maybe it's just a novelty now. I'm not even sure if it's about him anymore. I wish feelings could be editted and rearranged or just flat out deleted like what I'm typing.
"What does [she] have that I don't, besides timing and your heart?" -Only On Tuesdays
"And I knew it was impossible, but I loved you just the same." -Bob Franke

{All of that was inspired by the book I just read.}

When I was little and somehow the topic of being rich or not rich would come up my mom would tell me that our family is rich with love. And it is. I didn't really get it then, though I do now. My life isn't particularly hard or anything, it's just I don't really have any connections. Lately I've been feeling off and I can't stand anyone or anything for very long. As of right now I can't see myself as best friends with anyone I know. Yes, I love all of my friends a great deal, but there's something missing. That person who is just there all the time and you don't mind when they just sit there or don't say anything. That person who is ready and wiling to try out the things you like to do and teach you how to do the stuff they like to do. That person who is supposed to always be there and change with you but not grow apart. That person who knows that they're automatically invited. The majority of my friends have someone who hey consider their best friend or the equivalent, some have more than one.

Maybe I'm just asking too much.

I really hope no one is upset by this, but it's the truth, for the moment.

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What the hell was that? Those questions were crap. They were all horribly stereotypical and extreme.

Okay, if I don't post this now I'll end up erasing all of it. Actually that's a good idea. This is now the beginning of the post. I think it will be the end, too.

In 8 hours I will be in p.e. with the crazy Ms. Wooten. I am not looking forward to going back to school. But we only have two or three weeks left. I really hope my new classes are interesting.

Having my brother here and then talking to my cousin has made me really look forward to college. I don't know which one I want to go to. It has to be within a day's drive to home and close enough to the coast for at least monthly beach trips. I would prefer a UC. It can't be very far south at all, I'm not really a Southern California kind of person. It can't be in the valley. I think that leaves me with Berkeley.

Damn, damn, damn, the paint on Leilani's shirt cracked when I washed it. I did too thick of a coat. I don't think I'm going to use white paint for awhile. I should try acrylic paint mixed with fabric medium, I wonder if it works better. Or I should go get more screenprinting ink in different colors. What I really should do is actually use my screenprinting kit. I can't decide which idea to use though. It should be one that I'm going to make multiple prints of or it's not worth it. Would anyone be interested in a "Vegetables are people, too." shirt? I have that designed already.

I was just thinking that I should find a Facing New York show to go to since I haven't seen them yet and then I found out that the singer, Eric (ex Locale AM <3), has a node on one of his vocal chords and can't talk, not even whisper, for three months so it will heal. I hope it does, otherwise he could lose his voice permanently, and it's a very nice voice.

I found a sort of friend of the family/old friend on livejournal yesterday and I can't decide if I should leave a comment or IM her or something. She was nice. My mom has known her dad since highschool and stuff. But I don't know if she'll remember me. I've been getting lost in the lj world a lot lately. I hate it how no one uses their real name anywhere. I can't tell who the hell these people are, but they're friends with all my friends. In fact, the girl I was talking about didn't even use her real name, I guess she adopted a nickname as her real name, I recognized her picture.

Lennie, the iPod, keeps crashing my computer.

Does anyone want a patch that has smile stenciled onto it? I made a bunch. I also have some beach-y themed ones. And a hot air balloon. Patches are instant gratification.

7 and a half hours until school.

Apparently I need more than 3 hours of sleep in order to function correctly.

I hope everyone had a nice New Year's eve.

Okay, I think that's all I can think of right now. Time to ingest more caffeine.